I've been thinking about my poor neglected blog a lot lately. I really need to write things down...after all, this is the diary my kids will hopefully one day look back on and learn things from. Only it will be in dribs and drabs and have periods missing. There's so much I want to write about and yet I still don't have the energy for it.
2010 has been a joyous year in many ways but it has also been incredibly cruel to some of my closest friends. Besides the loss that Leah endured (see last post), another young friend who had already had to wage a battle against breast cancer, was delivered a further blow when complications during the delivery of her third child took her baby away after less than a day :(
I won't go into details here because it's still too fresh and too painful...but it just came as a shock to all of us. What was taken for granted as a happy moment turned into one of the saddest imaginable. To have to say goodbye to a child of any age must be truly heartbreaking but to say goodbye to a sweet little angel, that looked perfect and was perfect in every way, well there are no words to explain it...
I will write a happy post one day very soon, but I guess I wanted to write this so my kids know that life is for living and people are for loving. Life is too short. It's unpredictable. It presents us with the highest of highs and then hits us with the lowest of lows. And we just have to get up and keep going. And trust that God will give us the strength we need. My two friends are an absolute inspiration...I know their hearts are full of sadness and yet they keep getting up and they keep putting one foot in front of the other for their children. Heroes aren't on footy fields and movie screens...they are standing beside us at school gates and in supermarket queues... we just don't know all their stories.
For a sweet angel named Giselle and her parents,
I hope this poem brings some comfort
Daddy please don't look so sad,
Mumma please don't cry,
Cause I am in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies.
Please, try not to question God
or think He is unkind,
Don't think He sent me to you
And then He changed his mind.
You see, I am a special child
and I'm needed up above,
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you -
so watch the sky at night,
look for the the brightest star
and know that's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a gentle breeze from a gentle wind that blows,
Know that it's me planting a kiss upon your nose.
When you see a child playing and your heart feels a tug,
Don't be sad mummy, that's just me giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy don't look so sad,
And Mumma please don't cry,
I'm in the arms of Jesus and he sings me lullabies.